Reflecting on Teresa of Avila’s writings, The Interior Castle and a quote from someone given to me by one of the spiritual directors here,
“There are places in my heart that I have never been. Lord, sometimes I don’t know myself. I am blessed that you do.”
I get the feeling that there are whole rooms inside me that God wants to open and infuse with his presence. I don’t know what they are or how to go there – yet. I guess if God wants to go there then he knows the door to them. Someone said that these sorts of doors are tricky – they can only be opened from our side, which I think is true to an extent. However, somehow we have to hear God knocking from the other side, I think, before we realize where the door is located. Gradually as I open up those inner places to God I believe that I will understand a whole new level of freedom and be closer to really knowing who I am.
So, here in the silence I have been discovering stuff about me and God. And it is good.