Confessions of a closet speaker

I spoke today in church as Randall is away on vacation. My text was Romans 11:1, 2a and 29 to 32. I guess I would have to say that I also incorporated some of the verses in-between as well. My topic was on how we are grafted into the old story – the old covenant that God established with his chosen people; how important it is for us to know this history that we now have our roots in as well, how those ties with this old story of faith enrich us and nourish us as branches grafted in by our faith in Jesus. Well, there was lots more said and the details I may post over under my words section.

I have a confession to make – I like speaking. I like preparing and the way it takes me deeper into my study of the Bible. I like the way God shows up and guides me along as I delve into the scriptures.

Romans is a book pretty heavy with theology. If nothing else it stimulated my awareness that it is a subject I would like to know more about. I wonder if this interest in theology arises out of my own awareness that God is way beyond my understanding. So then, why bother trying to understand God? I am not sure why but it feels a bit as if he/she is beckoning; inviting me, if you will to discover more.

This is a bit of the sense of the “weirdness” that I alluded to in an earlier post. I find myself in a period of unsettledness, as if I am waiting for the next step to become clearer.

I am trying to take things one day at a time, being attentive to what God is moving me towards. I could jump in and start into a next project but I am still not sure if a new project is what I need – or what God wants for me. How do I respond to this itch in me, this drive to move towards something more? It is pretty much retirement time and why develop these desires now of all times in my life? And there are also all the other parts of my life that lay claim to some of my time. So, I am trying to be reasonable and patiently await a bit more clarity as to what the future might hold.

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  1. Well done this morning, Linea.

    “I have a confession to make – I like speaking. I like preparing and the way it takes me deeper into my study of the Bible. I like the way God shows up and guides me along as I delve into the scriptures”

    Me too.

  2. SharonK

    I’ve said it before and I shall say it again….we have become a “sending” church and it looks like it not only will be all the young people we are sending out to receive more education and to do the Lord’s work , it just may be the beginning of middle age folks flying the coop too.

    We live in exciting times.

    I can certainly see why you like speaking, Linea….because you are very good at it….you too Marc.

    But the Lord knows how important it is to never get our church numbers down to so few as to have to get MEto speak!

  3. Hi, Nice to have you come comment and “delurk.” I know what you mean about that feeling of waiting for that next step…I am clearly preparing myself for something…I just have no idea what. I suppose God does though, so I’ll just wait and see….more or less patiently depending on the day.

  4. Hi Linea, I thought I left a comment last night, but it doesn’t seem to be here…so if I turn up twice, I apologize. Thanks for reading and commenting over on my blog. I really resonate with the sense that something is coming in God’s dream for me and not being sure just what…it’s an interesting faith walk.

  5. Linea

    RevDrKate,
    Sorry you got caught in my spam queue.